#WeekendCoffeeShare. On the Hamster Wheel.

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Welcome to my Weekend Coffee Share, hosted by Allison at eclecticali.wordpress.com.  May is slipping past us.  I have felt so busy and overwhelmed, yet the days keep going by.  To quote T.S. Eliot’s The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock, “I have measured out my life in coffee spoons.”  Eliot is singing to me lately, as I’ll be turning 50 later this month!  I just worked on a turing fifty post and can’t wait to share it later this month!  Lately, I have pondered my life, what I am doing, where I am going, etc.,  and sometimes that just results in anxiety.

Case in point, last Saturday.  I was feeling frustrated with my book marketing efforts.  I had a marketing strategy session with Audrey, who runs the Author Transformation Alliance, and it was so exciting and educational.  I was pumped!  Then, I went and saw that my back tire had been leaking air all night; you see, my boyfriend and I had put air in it the night before.  I’d have to take it in somewhere.  Only, I had a massage appt. for 3:00 and hadn’t showered yet.  I had spent time on the laptop doing lesson plans before I’d even gone out to see my car.  What was I going to do?

I wasn’t taking my car in.  I would not cancel the massage appt.  It was bad enough that I had brought work home this weekend; I didn’t need a crisis situation.  Instead, I got a ride.  My son and my boyfriend later patched it up, and it was looking better Sunday…not flat.  I am so glad I didn’t jump and react with panic.  That was NOT going to be my Saturday.

Saturday evening was relaxed.  Affter dinner, I fell asleep watching Netflix after my boyfriend left.  I had started fantasizing all day about leaving the job, leaving my writerly aspirations, leaving my responsibilities, buying a van and then parking it on a beach where I would live and write poetry on paperbags, convincing someone I was the next Kerouac so they’d bring me tacos and sandwiches a few days a week.  On the beach!  A great way to leave behind the hamster wheel.  Sometimes it seems I’m going nowhere.  I’m getting older and I’ve never been to Europe.  My body aches after a massage.  I stress out just planning a vacation to the Northeast.  This tells me I’m riding on the edge a little too much.

On the writing scene, I finished my first edit for Undercurrents in Time (the sequel to Detours in Time) after the paid editor did her edit and notes.  Someone is now reading it for me….Excited, I am! I also took at least two webinars this week and read many notes of advice on the GDPR that is passing on 5/25, so I feel like my privacy policies and my e-mail marketing are in compliance.  I was stressing about that for a while.

On the topic of stress, I’m still reducing the caffeine intake.  I am dreaming of camping out and watching beach sunrises.  I suppose that could replace the dream of Europe.  Flying in a plane for 12 hours might not be the thing for me.  It’s okay.  I’m still living my life.  I’m just tired right now.   Slept until 10 a.m. last Sunday.  Guess I needed it!  The hamster wheel is a pain, but I am going to imagine it is exercising me, getting me in shape and ready for the next phase of life.  I’m going to believe it will be fabulous.

My family and I  enjoyed a wonderful Mother’s Day last week.  We went on a boat in the St. Augustine waters.  Here is my post  about my Mom and the wonderful ways she has shaped me as a person:  What Mother’s Day Means to Me

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Have a great weekend!

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Author: PamelaS.Canepa, Writing and Living

I am a writer who also teaches reading and writing, currently. In 2016, I self-published an e-book and its sequel, and I am learning the art of self-promotion. I published a full-length time travel novel as of 6/16/17 and its sequel in the summer of 2018. Life is a trip, and writing is the best escape for me! See my latest novel, Detours in Time, on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0711ZW6XF Visit me at https://about.me/pamela.schloessercanepa

5 thoughts on “#WeekendCoffeeShare. On the Hamster Wheel.”

  1. Hi Pamela. I’m still new to this group and so far have been very pleased with the new friends I’ve made. Today I read and liked your post, but “liked” is not quite the word I would have chosen if there were other options. You see, in several ways you are living my dream; published – lover of both Sci Fi & Historical Fiction, etc. Already you are far beyond what I may ever reach but I may have you beat in level of anxiety over it all. I am also still on the hamster wheel at age 63 and will own up to some stress about that – but I don’t think mine is as much as a burden as yours.

    Rather than offering you a virtual cup of coffee – I’d rather offer you a strong mug of peace sweetened with a packet of contentment. Having just heard of you, I’ve not read your books yet – but hard Sci Fi is, by far, my goto default source of reading pleasure. I’m given sorting through not only the characters builds, but also the science of the story.

    Did you deal with time dilation (ala Orson Scott Card & his Ender series) ? How do you think we’re going to finally solve (because we will some day) the whole problem of FTL travel. Are you as convinced as I am that we’ll also figure out how to manipulate the existing laws of physics to control gravity so we don’t really have to spin our space craft to let our occupants walk normally around the ship?

    That all said, my life allows only a much smaller project than you’ve tilted at. I write short (2000 words or less) funny autobiographical captures of my memories of growing up. If you find yourself just needing a laugh, you are invited to stop by and grab one for a quick 10 minute read and laugh.

    I also hope to share some weekend coffee time with you. You are already accomplished in areas that I can only dream of. Ah – last offering. I have been to Europe and recorded it as our Unforgettable 10th Anniversary. It’s historical, but not fiction and you might enjoy it as a glance at how this trip became unforgettable for us. If you check out my coffee share item, the link back to my collection is at the bottom.

    Best wishes.
    Gary

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    1. Thanks for sending peace! I also write short stories, but my sci-fi genre is more of social sci-fi, focused on changes in society and what’s accepted, and therefore not considered hard sci-fi. Maybe it’ll change one day ( with a lot of research), but I’ve been told that character building is my strength.

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  2. I hope the massage was lovely! It sounds like you need that beach vacation. You described how I feel every time I’m in a city. I never thought of it as anxiety, but that is probably what it is. All the concrete, asphalt, and people that stresses around, makes me stress. I hope you find the peace you need to feel good, and feel inspired to write. Cheers to a new week with endless possibilities !

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