Weekend Coffee Share, 8/01. It’s Not Over Yet! Summer, 2020

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Welcome to my Weekend Coffee Share, hosted by Allison at Eclectic Ali.  Grab a cup of whatever is your preference! I am having half-caff and Advil this morning.  Miles Davis plays in the background. I’m getting a haircut later and a massage tomorrow.  I don’t know if I can afford it, but I do have a credit card. 🙂  Enjoy the ambience for a little while!

It has been a week full of doctor visits and annual check-ups as well as a shot at the orthopedic surgeon’s office on Tuesday.  Remember, it takes a village. 🙂 The shot was in my shoulder joint (intra-articular shot), and there was a numbing shot first, after which I did not feel any pain nor did I know when the actual steroid shot occurred. The nurse on my other side asked me something and we got onto the topic of returning to school to teach, and that I am learning a few ASL signs for when I need to communicate but have my mask on. We discussed the signs we know and then, it was all over.  They did a good job of distracting me and keeping me calm and cool.  I just lay around the rest of that night and had slight discomfort from it the next day. I was back at physical therapy on Friday. I’ve been working hard on that for 7-8 weeks and it may end soon, but I’ve been told with frozen shoulder I need to keep working on it at home; it may take a year to fully resolve.

I am so done with feeling old and want to do stupid, youthful things again…read that as fun things.  Nonetheless, we celebrated my mom’s 79th birthday Thursday night and I was able to cut my own steak! It was very tender, I will admit, but still a win! A month ago, I couldn’t quite do that.  I am not writing much lately as it’s hard to sit down for very long.  Whether this is a new focus issue or me avoiding sciatica, I can’t say.  I will say that I prefer to get up a lot to take breaks from the computer. It probably is a result of the online teaching I did this Spring.  I did publish a nice poem on WordPress this past week in response to the Ragtag Daily word prompt; it was about our human condition and the current world situation. View it here: By Design, a Poem

20190530_200427 Me and Mom (2019). She has many more years left!

I had lunch with some retired teachers yesterday and then later chatted with a current teacher friend about my health ailments.  I also developed a mood yesterday that hasn’t been helped by lack of sleep, (which just became problematic in this last year and may be due to hot flashes and overthinking, go figure), so I have decided that getting old sucks.
I want to develop a ‘getting older’ attitude that says “I am wise, and I know the little stuff doesn’t matter.  I know my day can be GREAT without brushing my hair or buying the most expensive makeup.”  I want to use this as an excuse to be silly, do zany things, and make questionable stylistic choices. I want to break out of society’s assumptions and chains! Aches or not.  I do sometimes worry that I will overstep my limits and hurt myself, but living in fear is not my new M.O.!

Mind you, I am careful, and I sure don’t travel much in our current situation, which is why I’m pondering and looking for physical activities. I suppose it is boredom, mid-life crisis, or just wanting to actually feel I am LIVING while I can. (It’s not over yet, you know). I want to stay active and be healthy, as staying physically active could also possibly put me on a new path, not the path of pain I have felt stuck in for a good 5 years or so, partly as a result of emotions and life stress.  I polled some Facebook friends, and I’ve gotten suggestions such as: horseback riding, paddle boarding, trying wine in every county in Florida (totally doable), solo travel (not sure about that), and getting a kick-start scooter.  We shall see! I definitely want to hike some more.  Summer is not over yet, and I have a little time left to enjoy the beach.

Florida news: In my state, we now have 465,000 cases of COVID according to cdc.gov.  My county has 20, 816 cases.  School is going to re-open on 8/20. Teachers are starting back for planning/training on 8/12.  We’ll see what happens, I suppose.  I for one will have plenty of masks at the ready and I’ll also wear a face shield.

I hate that I still can get in such a negative mood like I did yesterday, but reading the book Finding Serenity in the Age of Anxiety has been providing nuggets of wisdom for about a month since I started reading it.  This is how I proceed with non-fiction books; I devour a fiction book in a week but take a break now and then to read part of whatever NF or self-help book I am currently on.  Anyway, here’s what inspired me:  “When we fear that ‘something bad is going to happen,’ or when we get upset because ‘everything went wrong today,’ we are also suffering from our own judgments. Refraining from judging and blaming allows us to enter the sacred realm of unconditional acceptance where we are ‘good enough’ and nothing ‘bad’ will ever happen to us.”….”If we truly want to emulate the divine, we will cultivate unconditional acceptance.” So there it is; let’s stop being so hard on ourselves, stop believing the worst, and start seeing the positives in everything! I am working on it.

I hope that you all have a great weekend and find the good in everything you see!  I am going to do my best to put on a youthful attitude.  It just might require a nap this afternoon…

Author: PamelaS.Canepa, Writing and Living

I am a writer who also teaches reading and writing, currently. In 2016, I self-published an e-book and its sequel, and I am learning the art of self-promotion. I published a full-length time travel novel as of 6/16/17 and its sequel in the summer of 2018. Life is a trip, and writing is the best escape for me! Learn about my award-winning sci-fi novel, Detours in Time, on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0711ZW6XF Visit me at https://about.me/pamela.schloessercanepa

12 thoughts on “Weekend Coffee Share, 8/01. It’s Not Over Yet! Summer, 2020”

  1. Hello Pamela,
    1) It sounds like that shot is helping. Bravo!
    2) I’m the wrong person to be making suggestions about exercise. I need to fix this.
    3) I do however have a great, proven method for resolving that MOOD. Find someone, maybe through your church who you can mentor. Look for as much of a mess as you can get your brain around and help her (yes – her, no men or family, allowed for this step) get her life or job or writing, etc. back in order. Investing in someone else, lifts your eyes from your own situation and makes you want to be strong for someone else. The more you let yourself fall in love with them, the better. The more you invest in them, the better you will feel about you.
    4) I know I don’t need to remind you, but such things rarely advise my actions, so I do remind you that you are strong, smart, determined, compassionate and given the chance, can lift others from much more misery than you or I suffer from. It just works for people as mature and wise as you.
    5) You may worry about them, but you will know in fairly short order that they are better off for having spent time with you AND you will be so fulfilled for having made such a difference in someone’s life.
    6) laugh more. Find something that makes you laugh and make it happen daily. I do have a few stories I can recommend. . . .

    That’s enough from me about that.
    I enjoyed your coffee share. I don’t know who has the better smile, you or your mom, but both are pretty awesome. Keep up the good work and make time to celebrate your progress but do go easy on the expensive cosmetics, or any cosmetics for that matter. You’re a beautiful person just the way God made you.

    Blessings.

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    1. Gary, thanks so much for your wise, caring words of encouragement! I am ruminating on a few things. We also will see what this school year brings me. A good quote I once saw (your words reminded me of this), says: “Ask yourself, What am I here to learn, and what am I here to teach?” Thank you for your kind words and friendship!

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  2. Looking at that photo of your mom, if you take after her at all, I am sure you will find something fun to do. there is a lot out there in this big world,and “exciting” is a matter point of opinion – hiking is high on my list. Kayaking is too (I don’t care for stand up paddle boarding), but I’m sure it wouldn’t be easy for you now – a lot of shoulder involved! Starting school with the situation in Florida sounds scary to me… Anyway, I enjoyed the Miles Davis (since you said “ambiance”, I’ll assume it was something like “Kind of Blue” and not “Bitches Brew” 😉 ). Hope you have a great week.

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  3. I know the photo of you and your mom was from last year, but it is so sweet, SO SWEET. I hope you have it on your wall 🙂 I hope you have a pleasant, pain-free weekend. Thank you for the coffee.

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  4. Hi Pamela glad to see you in such fine spirits.. carpe diem hahaha I actually think I need to tone down my workout routine I was trying something crazy and now I can feel my pulse in stomach but on the upside i did get myself abs like a spartan too bad its winter and there’s no beach to show off in this landlocked teapot shaped country
    ~B

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    1. Hi, Beaton! Feeling your pulse in your stomach? Yikes! It sounds like you might have been doing headstands? Now I’m curious. I’ve never been able to do a headstand. Side note, I am consciously trying day by day to keep the spirits up. Sometimes it’s not hard at all! Carpe diem is right. 🙂 Take care, my friend.

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      1. I was doing something called an Ab Wheel Roll Out which is kind of like doing planks but while balancing on a wheeled contraption lol I can’t do a handstand either but I can do a human flag pole horizontal lift (for a couple of seconds haha )

        Love and light
        ~B

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