I am Mother. #Poetry

Photo taken in 2008. That’s my son and I; he was twelve at the time.  (And that’s 425 steps)!  A happy memory. 🙂 I have witnessed my son growing up drastically lately.  All part of the process.  I brought out this poem while reflecting on how much he has changed.

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copyright 2015, Pamela Schloesser Canepa

I am Mother.

I feed you, clothe you, house you.

I shield you from harm.

You are my child.

I am Mother.

I stand back and let you fall,

Teetering and learning how to get back up.

You are an adult.

How did it come to this?

It seems it happened overnight.

I am supposed to let go.

But what if something bad happens?

I am confused.

As you wallow in the mud,

how can I not reach in to help?

But then how would you learn,

to help yourself?

I am Mother.

I no longer make the rules.

Life won’t tell me what is next.

Nor will you.  Nor do you know.

I feel destined to fail.

I am  still Mother.

Though I will sometimes fail.

And you’ll tell me I’m wrong.

I still love you always,

Even when I gracefully lose.

I am still your Mother.

And I will never quit. 

 

 

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Staying True to Me, My Exercise Evolution, Pt. 2

YogaBabt4thI am sharing an experience from about a year ago.  It is my intent that I will share a few experiences that inspired me to write, whether a Facebook post or diary entry, and to catch up to more current yoga streams of consciousness.  This one was a turning point for me, because no matter what exercise you choose, you have to realize that you are not like everyone else and embrace that fact, instead of feeling ashamed.  Due to physical arthritis or stress-related issues, Yoga has lately been my exercise of choice, with occasional pilates and barre classes to push myself. Yet my spirit so often begs for yoga.  Think about it; yoga is a relaxing exercise that helps center the mind, but it quickly loses that factor when you are pushing yourself to be something you’re not, or comparing yourself to others in the room who may be a little more, well, limber.  Best is the instructor who reminds you to go at your own pace, modify if needed, stop comparing yourself to others, and yes, “Hang out in child’s pose” if you feel the need!

*I had a yoga win last night! I was not going to let that gal force me into a frog. I’ve been forced into one before and, well, Pam is not a frog. This was probably 9 years ago at a gym that has long since closed.  I recall being amazed that I could actually get into a frog, only, guess what?  I didn’t get into a frog; I was forced into the frog!  Getting out of it was pretty awkward.  I wasn’t having that this time.  I muttered, “No. I have trouble with….” You could fill in the blank, this week. She heard knee, and moved on to someone else. So I did my own pose without pins and needles of pain, because yoga is for relaxation, not pain. I also did not turn my mind off (such a rebel)! There are great things going on; thank God! My mind is working for me right now and I will let it, since I’ve actually been able to write lately. This yoga/exercise state of mind and leading me to healthy thoughts; my mind is not shut off, but I’m not worrying!  Therefore, this must be a good thing.  It was awesome this time to practice something that did relax my body and mind, and still, through it all, I remained true to me.   Sorry if ya’ll expected me to say I’d figured out the headstand…..*

 

 

 

 

The Awkward First Date, and My First Published e-book, Free on 9/02!

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The awkward first date, a tale as old as time itself (well, probably).  What does this have to do with my first published e-book being free today (9/02)?  Well, writing takes me down the paths of memory and imagination.  My worst was at age 19, with a blind date, a guy who knew my best friend’s boyfriend.  Well, he was from somewhere in the Northeast, and the first thing I noticed was that every few words he spoke were “F… that,”  “that f…ing” etc, etc, etc.  I don’t recall much else of what he said.  We got in his car to meet my friends at a movie.  Get- to- know- you time, right?  Beer cans on the floor, one not even empty; he picked it up to drink from it, as he accelerated up to 90 in just a minute or two on a one-lane, 45 mile-per- hour road.  You see, his hobby was racing cars.  I made comments about the beer and his speeding in a passive aggressive manner, my M.O. at age 19.  Soon, flashing lights followed us, and he was stopped.  Honestly, none of this tale is embellished.

Just how much will you forgive on an awkward first date?  I wasn’t forgiving the beer or the endangerment of my life, for sure.  I felt grateful the cops took him away, and was glad that my friends drove up just beforehand.  And that’s what this has to do with my first published novella, Made for Me, a story that begins with a futuristic awkward first date and describes a technologically changing world and a dating world of old and new traditions.  Whatever could be wrong with a man of the future?  Well, here’s a hint, he doesn’t get taken away by the cops on the first date, a date that, decidedly, was our last.  Here’s another:  he seems like the perfect man, save for one hefty secret, one my main character, Abrielle, can’t even tell her mom.

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So, I certainly had some fuel for fodder as I dreamed up the tale of Made for Me.  Abrielle and Sampson have some unique challenges, as online dating evolves, improves, or glitches in the future.  You can download Made for Me on Amazon Kindle for free on 9/02 only!  It starts at midnight Pacific time, so, roughly, 2.5 hours from the time of this post.  Get it at   http://amzn.to/1sgxtJt  Reviews are greatly appreciated!

To quote one five-star review:  “The futuristic aspects of the book make it a fun read while the emotions in the book grab you.”  Won’t you give this book, touted by one reader as “Delicious brain candy,” a spin around the block?  Just don’t speed….

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My Exercise Evolution. What it does for me, Intro…Stream of Consciousness.Pt 1

LatinDancethI’ve run the gamut with exercises.  Aerobics, to kickboxing, to weights, to Zumba, to yoga.  I’m planning to start a regular blog series, weekly or bi-weekly, time will tell, that is focused on the benefits I get from exercise. So, yes, my exercise of choice keeps evolving.  I’ll start here with Zumba.  One day I had a discussion with my students about releasing aggression.  At that time, Zumba was my go to.  That discussion spawned this stream of consciousness that occurred during Zumba class. * They say exercise is good for the brain….

Yoga has, at times been a great outlet for me.  It is more like hypnotizing.  Nothing else matters but the moment, so I leave it all behind.  I still use this one at times.  But what works so well for me in releasing aggression, besides the calming medicine for my overactive colon,  is a mixture of two things.  And I guess I could share this with my students but I didn’t.  Because I get pretty tired of all the sugar-coating.

Right now, the first method of releasing my aggression is my obsession with “Breaking Bad.”  It is a go-to since I can even do this if I’m sick.  I get to watch a meek, down-on-his-luck fellow totally buck the system, come up against some really bad villains, and succeed.  Man, this show is violent.  I myself am even surprised I got hooked, but you know, it makes you care about the characters.  It’s not just the violence, there also are some excellent story-telling elements like flashback and foreshadowing.  Similarly, I have, for a long time, been totally hooked on “Fringe”, which is also pretty violent and ominous.  But I can put myself in the place of their unstoppable female heroine, Olivia, who,yes, always wins, even escaping captivity after countless times.  These are great ways of escape for me.  Life can’t be all about work and cooking dinner, you know?

Then there is Zumba.  Last year I had told some students that I do Zumba and their eyes got wide.  They probably know about the snake (which I don’t do unless I want to laugh at myself).  Well, I stay away for a while and then go back and it’s like returning to a lost lover.  It is so good for me.  Not to mention I love to dance and this is my only dance right now.  So there’s the expression element.  But it’s not just dance.  It’s Zumba.  You move your hips and do some fancy footwork and, oh, so many chances to wave your hands!  Just to make sure you move your hips, they always play at least one or two songs by Pitbull, that hottie from Cuba with the goatee.  His voice is unmistakable.  Deep.  Raw.  What a perfect example of channeling aggression.  And that fits so well with Zumba.  He has been touted as a misogynist.  That’s beside the fact.  They play him for the aggression in his voice.

It is okay to shake it and you are really Zumba-ing the more you shake your hips (which is a side-effect of the Pitbull songs for me).  I think it is ALL about channeling aggression, expressing it, and not being ashamed.  Oh, Lordie, I grew up with lots of shame so this is SO freeing to me.  His lyrics are also pretty aggressive.  In fact, on the radio, it sounds like they are bleeping a few words out of every one of his songs I have ever heard.  But, ah.  That voice.  Yep.  Zumba works for me.  Anyone who ever made me feel inadequate doesn’t see me letting loose my inhibitions, dancing out my demons and feeling like an island princess.  I can close my eyes and make believe I’m Rihanna.  I have the right class, with women of mixed ages and backgrounds all there for the same reason.   My son was embarrassed at first about me going to Zumba, since he goes to the same gym and works the weights while I am in class.  He seems more supportive, though, maybe because he likes the Latino girls.  Whatever.  Doesn’t bother me…….I am no longer too old, too shy, too judgmental, or too inadequate to dance.    Nor am I overly concerned with my mothering or teaching techniques when I am in there listening to Pitbull and getting the Spanish lyrics wrong (one song sounds like “Happy Drunk.”  To me anyway.)  And that releases all manner of tension, aggression, and inhibition.

That is the goal, after all.  Release the aggression.  Don’t just swallow it and don’t deny it.  We are human.  We are of this earth.  Imperfect.  That is what made us survive as long as we have.  I love to listen to the jungle rhythms in Zumba and imagine myself there.  Yes, I am of this earth.  I have something that works for me.  I wasn’t sure if the kids asked me the other day what my answer would be, but it all came to me in Zumba class. 🙂

*The gym where I had regularly attended Zumba class has since shut down, and I have moved on to a new exercise of choice.  Such will be the subject of my next Exercise Evolution blog post!

I’m being interviewed as an author on Blog Talk Radio! #ravereviewsbookclub

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*This photo shows the most recent Blog Talk Radio Show, and the screen where you access the broadcast.  Use this weblink:   http://www.blogtalkradio.com/ravereviewsbookclub and click the ‘play’ icon toward the top of the screen (where I’m pointing). 🙂

On Saturday, 8/27, I’ll be one of the authors interviewed on Blog Talk Radio, an online talk show!  I’ll be talking about Made for Me and probably giving a mention of my sequels. It starts at 1 p.m. Eastern time, 12 noon CST, 11 Mountain time, etc.  Won’t you listen in?  Save this website:  http://www.blogtalkradio.com/ravereviewsbookclub and put this on your calendar.  It’s a 30-minute  show, and there will be a few authors, so I may only be talking for a few minutes.  That’s a great start for me!  You can listen in on your laptop/desktop while you have lunch.   What should I wear?  Wait, that won’t matter.  It could be my p.j.s for all you know…

I’m so excited!  This came about as a result of my membership in Rave Reviews Book Club.  Have I mentioned this Writers’/Readers’ club before?  Rave Reviews Book Club requires a nominal fee once per year, and with that, you are a member!  Membership means you will get news of excellent books being published or going on sale, and as a writer, you will get to share your books and news.  Your requirement is to follow other members on Twitter, purchase 4 books by fellow members yearly and review them on Amazon, and to share/retweet fellow members’ news of their books.  In return, you will be supported with shares of your tweets and book information, you’ll have your book looked at, purchased and reviewed, and at some point, yours will be chosen as the book of the month.  This all means much more exposure, what every indie author needs.  Besides all of this, they have a blog talk radio show, a channel on Whatsapp (which I haven’t joined yet), and special programs such as the Back to School Blog party.  I haven’t partaken in every little bit, but I just wanted to show that there are so many opportunities for networking and spreading news of your book at this club.  After a few months, I have been chosen to talk for a few minutes about my book on their Blog Talk Radio show.  I’m hoping some of you will listen in!

Again, to follow the broadcast, go to http://www.blogtalkradio.com/ravereviewsbookclub , at 12 p.m. CT (1:00 p.m. Eastern time) and listen!  The broadcast lasts about 30 minutes, and there will be other authors speaking, so please be patient, and you’ll get to hear my interview.  You can even comment on Twitter, or send in a question via Twitter using the hashtag #RRBCTagTeam245 .  Look who’s gone high-tech.  🙂

Are you interested in the policies and perks of the Rave Reviews Book Club?  Visit their site at http://ravereviewsbynonniejules.wordpress.com/ and if you sign up, tell them Pamela Schloesser Canepa sent you there!  Yes, they even have perks for getting new members signed up.  I seriously love being a part of this Book Club.

Indie Writers Rock! An Interview with Lisa Wood,Newly Published Author of the novelette, Burnt Offering

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I am pleased to announce my first ever author blog interview!  What makes it even more exciting is the fact that this newly published author is also a friend of mine who was once a co-worker.  Lisa Wood just recently published her first sci-fi fantasy e-book, a novelette titled Burnt Offering, on Smashwords and on Amazon Kindle.  It seems she and I have a bit in common, even down to the fact that she loves the author, Christopher Moore!  Here’s the rest of the scoop on this new author:

 

Tell us about yourself and how many books you have written.

My name is Lisa Wood.  I am a theatre teacher.  I have been writing forever, but I recently decided to share some of my work with people who didn’t know me (that was terrifying).  So far, I have published a novelette (Burnt Offering) and a flash fiction (‘Til Death… Well Maybe) which has a longer sequel on the way (Death Won’t Wait Forever).

What is the name of your latest book and what inspired it?  

The most recent book that I have completed is called Burnt Offering.  It was inspired by my mother’s battle with cancer.  I was dealing with some intense emotions and I channeled them into a Cinderella themed story.

Do you have any unusual writing habits?  

   I see pictures in my head, and I just have to turn them into words.  I always carry a notebook around with me, because I can never tell when the next story will haunt me, and I can’t get them out of my head until I write them down.  It’s cathartic.

What authors or books have influenced you?  

   I love Neil Gaiman, Shakespeare, Mercedes Lackey, George R.R. Martin, Christopher Moore, Jane Austen just to name a few (really, I could go on and on forever about authors that I love).  I think my writing is influenced by everything around me all of the time, especially things that I didn’t particularly like.

What are you working on now?

Right now, I have a few stories on burners.  I am trying very hard to finish Death Won’t Wait Forever, the sequel to ‘Til Death… Well Maybe.  I also have a thread I’m following on the fairy tale remakes that involves the Wizard of Oz and a post-apocalyptic future that may or may not include my favorite kind of undead creatures.  And there is my big project which I have been working on forever, but recently I stalled on it.  I will come back and get the last fifth of it written when the pictures take over my head again.

Do you have any advice for new authors?

For me, writing is and always has been a therapeutic practice.  Even before I had a story to tell, writing in my journal was the easiest way to keep my sanity as a kid.

What are you reading now?

I’m listening to the Game of Thrones audiobooks, reading the HedgeKnight II graphic novel, as well as Harry Potter and the Cursed Child Play, and a great book for work that is so amazing I forgot the title of it 😮

What’s next for you as a writer?
I never really do know what is next for me.  Once an idea strikes me, I write it down and if I’m not already engrossed in something else, I make an outline and start writing.  I suppose the world will just have to be as surprised as I am what will come out of my head next.

If you were going to be stranded on a desert island and allowed to take 3 or 4 books with you, what books would you bring?
I would want to bring books that I had never read before.  I have a very good memory for books, and I’d love the chance to read some new things that I have never read before.  But I think at least one of those books would have to be a giant blank notebook 🙂 just in case…

Find Lisa here:

Lisa’s Author Website:  Lisa Wood

http://lisawoodbooks.wordpress.com/

Author’s social media links:

Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/LisaWoodBooks/

http://www.instagram.com/lisakins05

Preview and buy her books here:

Smashwords: http://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/lisawoodbooks

Kindle: http://www.amazon.com/dp/B01KCR1U8G

Barnes & Noble: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/til-death-well-maybe-lisa-wood/1124240140?ean=2940153150567

If you buy Lisa’s book, please kindly give her a review on the site where you purchased it . It helps the author, and it helps other readers.

Lisa, thank you for letting me interview you for my blog!  I wish you much success in your writing endeavor!