Welcome to my Weekend Coffee Share, hosted by Allison at Eclectic Ali. Grab a cup of whatever is your preference! I am having half-caff and Advil this morning. Miles Davis plays in the background. I’m getting a haircut later and a massage tomorrow. I don’t know if I can afford it, but I do have a credit card. 🙂 Enjoy the ambience for a little while!
It has been a week full of doctor visits and annual check-ups as well as a shot at the orthopedic surgeon’s office on Tuesday. Remember, it takes a village. 🙂 The shot was in my shoulder joint (intra-articular shot), and there was a numbing shot first, after which I did not feel any pain nor did I know when the actual steroid shot occurred. The nurse on my other side asked me something and we got onto the topic of returning to school to teach, and that I am learning a few ASL signs for when I need to communicate but have my mask on. We discussed the signs we know and then, it was all over. They did a good job of distracting me and keeping me calm and cool. I just lay around the rest of that night and had slight discomfort from it the next day. I was back at physical therapy on Friday. I’ve been working hard on that for 7-8 weeks and it may end soon, but I’ve been told with frozen shoulder I need to keep working on it at home; it may take a year to fully resolve.
I am so done with feeling old and want to do stupid, youthful things again…read that as fun things. Nonetheless, we celebrated my mom’s 79th birthday Thursday night and I was able to cut my own steak! It was very tender, I will admit, but still a win! A month ago, I couldn’t quite do that. I am not writing much lately as it’s hard to sit down for very long. Whether this is a new focus issue or me avoiding sciatica, I can’t say. I will say that I prefer to get up a lot to take breaks from the computer. It probably is a result of the online teaching I did this Spring. I did publish a nice poem on WordPress this past week in response to the Ragtag Daily word prompt; it was about our human condition and the current world situation. View it here: By Design, a Poem
Me and Mom (2019). She has many more years left!
I had lunch with some retired teachers yesterday and then later chatted with a current teacher friend about my health ailments. I also developed a mood yesterday that hasn’t been helped by lack of sleep, (which just became problematic in this last year and may be due to hot flashes and overthinking, go figure), so I have decided that getting old sucks.
I want to develop a ‘getting older’ attitude that says “I am wise, and I know the little stuff doesn’t matter. I know my day can be GREAT without brushing my hair or buying the most expensive makeup.” I want to use this as an excuse to be silly, do zany things, and make questionable stylistic choices. I want to break out of society’s assumptions and chains! Aches or not. I do sometimes worry that I will overstep my limits and hurt myself, but living in fear is not my new M.O.!
Mind you, I am careful, and I sure don’t travel much in our current situation, which is why I’m pondering and looking for physical activities. I suppose it is boredom, mid-life crisis, or just wanting to actually feel I am LIVING while I can. (It’s not over yet, you know). I want to stay active and be healthy, as staying physically active could also possibly put me on a new path, not the path of pain I have felt stuck in for a good 5 years or so, partly as a result of emotions and life stress. I polled some Facebook friends, and I’ve gotten suggestions such as: horseback riding, paddle boarding, trying wine in every county in Florida (totally doable), solo travel (not sure about that), and getting a kick-start scooter. We shall see! I definitely want to hike some more. Summer is not over yet, and I have a little time left to enjoy the beach.
Florida news: In my state, we now have 465,000 cases of COVID according to cdc.gov. My county has 20, 816 cases. School is going to re-open on 8/20. Teachers are starting back for planning/training on 8/12. We’ll see what happens, I suppose. I for one will have plenty of masks at the ready and I’ll also wear a face shield.
I hate that I still can get in such a negative mood like I did yesterday, but reading the book Finding Serenity in the Age of Anxiety has been providing nuggets of wisdom for about a month since I started reading it. This is how I proceed with non-fiction books; I devour a fiction book in a week but take a break now and then to read part of whatever NF or self-help book I am currently on. Anyway, here’s what inspired me: “When we fear that ‘something bad is going to happen,’ or when we get upset because ‘everything went wrong today,’ we are also suffering from our own judgments. Refraining from judging and blaming allows us to enter the sacred realm of unconditional acceptance where we are ‘good enough’ and nothing ‘bad’ will ever happen to us.”….”If we truly want to emulate the divine, we will cultivate unconditional acceptance.” So there it is; let’s stop being so hard on ourselves, stop believing the worst, and start seeing the positives in everything! I am working on it.
I hope that you all have a great weekend and find the good in everything you see! I am going to do my best to put on a youthful attitude. It just might require a nap this afternoon…