Welcome to my Weekend Coffee Share, hosted by Allison at Eclectic Ali. It has been another busy week, but I ended it with a day off for an appointment. I was getting nervous about this appointment anyway, because if something didn’t look right to them, something could possibly be wrong, so I decided I would not go back to work after it and requested a whole day of leave. Though it turned out okay, I am still glad I did. Well, I lived through the uncomfortable appointment, a re-check mammogram and ultrasound, and after long waiting periods, was told that everything is fine and I just have a little cyst. “No problem, you’re just getting older and things change.” Whatever. Thanks for the reassurance. At least I don’t have to go for any further testing, but I tell you, this also happened last year. I don’t like it, but I’ll rejoice that it wasn’t something more serious.
Yes, I was slightly worried as there is a lot of other stress in my life. Not only is there a unique amount of risk to being a woman, but there is a unique amount of risk to being a teacher these days. Just watch the news. Yada, yada, yada. All of this in addition to state testing. These last two things also burden our students, and when emotionally burdened, some of them act out. I’ve been handling it. I’ve also been looking inward and wondering if I am coming to a crossroads. Is something wrong with me? How will I face it? Shoot, I have asked that question regarding school shootings as well. One good end product of this week, however, is that I have been talking to God more. I go out and walk the dog and see the beautiful night sky, and I know the world and the heavens are still there, no matter what happens to me. I have told him I will face it like a champ and do my best. There are so many others less fortunate, who have fought or lost battles with their health or fought to save the lives of children. I would never go down without a fight in either scenario.
The sum of my week’s anxiety was that I am healthy, maybe getting old and changing, but healthy. So, the rest of the day consisted of relaxing and then discovering my hair stylist could fit me in for a cut and style. I need this hair to be easier to do in the morning. I’m really going for asymmetric. Hey, my chiropractor has told me one leg is longer than the other. We all are pretty asymmetrical, so let’s celebrate it! 🙂
In between and in the waiting room, I had done a lot of reading and just started The Gum Thief. I must say, I’m really enjoying it. Although, in its paperback form (which I had ordered) the print is small enough to require me to wear readers and remind me I am not thirty anymore. Blah, blah, blah. No complaining here!
At the end of the day, Mom and I had dinner together at a little neighborhood restaurant/bar. There was karaoke outside so we went out and had a drink. It was fun to people watch, but I decided I wanted to sing. It’s been a while, and why not celebrate my nutty, fearless self! I sang Bobby McGee by Joplin and Back on the Chain Gang by the Pretenders. Mom had great fun just watching me and talking to other people around. I am so glad I took her outside for the fun.
My current read is pictured above, and I am loving it! Two people who work together and have weird observations on life share their perspectives when one of them finds the other’s journal. He is a budding writer, lonely and middle-aged. She is a young Goth complete with black lipstick. It’s really entertaining!
Oh, I am seriously looking forward to summer and all the writing and reading I can do (though I’ve started the reading already)! Before this, I just finished Kindred by Octavia Butler and loved it! See my review at Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/review/show/2075655367
I have also been thinking on ideas for my WIP, Malachi, and at the same time, the character of Ellie, who pops up in Malachi’s life, is getting stronger. Here is a visualization I found this week of Ellie at one point of her life: https://pamelascanepa.wordpress.com/2019/05/09/character-visualization-and-wip-detours-in-time-series-amwriting-scifi/
That’s my week in a nutshell! I am healthy, Schrodinger’s cat has been released, better safe than sorry, and all those other lovely platitudes.
You all have a great week!
pamelascanepa 