Welcome to my Weekend Coffee Share, hosted by Antoinette. https://antoinettetrugliomartin.com/2020/01/10/winter-on-hilton-head-island/ Pull up a chair and drink whatever you like!
If we were having coffee today, I’d be drinking a half-caff hazelnut. Half seems to work best for me these days, I am trying to work on maintaining a calmer spirit. I might be brief today, as I have a hair appointment that mainly serves the purpose of making my hair easier to maintain.
I feel like I am growing as a person, and physical therapy is making me feel stronger. I’m realizing that, for a long time, I have stuffed negative emotions down in areas of my body, currently, the lower back and shoulder. But I’ve made progress and have been able to complete every pose in Zen yoga for the last two visits, and that makes me proud. My job stresses me out all the time, as there are certain things I want to do right, yet I am pushed to ‘get them done’ in small amounts of time. Yet, most of my students delight me. I love watching them grow. One of them still makes origami animals for me, and I enjoy it so much; I started giving him candy when he brings me something awesome. I feel it is right to reward someone who wants to share their talent to make me smile. I am working on an end of the year poem to give to all of them. I know, it’s way ahead of that, but I am still sleeping at a shortened amount of time so my brain must do something, and I will not let it constantly worry. There is so much beauty in this world!
In stressful times, I decided to use a go-to scenario involving Jimi Hendrix singing for me. He is my latest obsession which is much better than obsessing about my health. Anyway, he sings, and I have turned into a butterfly; I am limitless and indomitable, feeling no fear. That’s for when I need to relax, because sometimes I am still very tense, though I am working on that. I suppose this tensing is a defense mechanism that actually, overall, hurts me in the long run.
In the writing area, I have finished Malachi and have sent it off to the editor. I have gotten the book cover done and there will be a cover reveal soon! It is at about 170 pages. My negative inner voice tells me that isn’t enough. My other voice tells me his story is completed; Ellie is entering the picture now and wants the spotlight. There is a lot between those two, so it will be in the book after that. I need to have faith in myself. I haven’t worked on fiction in about two weeks; I’m writing a lot about my growth process, dealing with anxiety and trying to grow through the arthritis pain. Who knew dealing with physical pain had so much to do with mental health? I published a short poem to my son about some of this, as he has had many struggles already in his short life. You can find it here: https://pamelascanepa.wordpress.com/2020/01/09/for-my-son-poetry/
That is all for today. It is beautiful outside here in the Southeast! I’m going to exercise a little before the hair appointment, and hopefully, have a carefree day. How are things in your corner of the world?